Sunrise day before yesterday. Nice, huh? I swear this is what I look at when I open my eyes in the morning. Now just how fortunate am I or what? Yes and I am thankful for every single day I have. I love life and every minute of it.
Recently I was hurt by someone and I am trying to get over it and I will for sure but it's not something that has happened to me often in my life. It's sure a learning experience. And not something that I want to do again. People can be thoughtless, can't they? I hope I never do that to anyone. Try never to hurt anyone. But if you do feel the shame you deserve and make it up to them.
Today Andre' shall beat me up for the last time before the cruise. I am really going to try to eat healthy but it's so hard with all that tempting food in front of you. I am at my lowest weight now in many years. I am down ninety-one pounds since Sarge died. Nine to go. It has been a pleasure to do it for the most part because he asked me to and when I'd get down I would just think of him and be fine again.
It actually hurts me to look at this photo or any photo when I was that big. This is my granddaughter Ayla on the night she got engaged to Matt. I could barely walk back then and used a scooter for distance. I know you should never say never but honey I will NEVER do this to myself again. I could cry looking at that face. Nope, never again.
Am I determined? You know I am. If you are one of the friends that have come along with me on this journey I am so proud of you too. Never go back. Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.
All the best my dears!